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Saturday, January 2, 2010

hurt

Assalamualaikum

Im tring 2 hide a feeling rite now but me myself xtau ape perasaan tu…

Yesterday was Friday. No class. Today is Saturday. Ade ko k jer.. tomorrow is Sunday. No class again. Monday will b hectic. 4 classes. Tuesday got 1. Weds is class free. Khamis sama cm isnin. Dis sem’s gonna b a hols sem. Seronokkah?? Wahaa…

Actually, ms ak add subject2 utk membentuk jadual sem ni (act nurah did fer me.hehe..)..bnyk bnda yg ak consider. At first, 2 bkn idea ak pn.. tp it was ivan’s. he suggested dat kind of schedule, sbb katanye die nk buat cmtu. So nk dijadikan cerita, mlm add tu, I cant even log in to uum portal. Try bnyk2 x pn xdpt jugak. So, I was kind of pasrah jer la… bia la klas mane2 pn, jnji ade klas.. so I went 2 sleep. Kununnye nk bgn awl n wat jadual tu pepagi buta la..
Tp..lam kul 1 lbh cmtu.. tetibe nurah kol n say.. “ babe, I dh reg semua utk u. same class” . oh my God. Dat was wut I call takdir. Think bout dis. If I cant make a timetable like dat, I will have class everyday plus ko k on Saturday. Cuti adalah jumaat semata2. Penatnye. Penat bersiap tiap2 ari..penat beratur 2 get in a bus..penat melepak fer every pertukaran class n penat jiwa untuk untuk pk ketensenan hidup. So Alhamdulillah.. ak mmg sgt bersyukur bila jadual ak membolehkan ak cuti 3 days a week.ngee..

Talking bout d hols. Act, kalo ak nk cuti 3 ari seminggu, I can choose another pattern of jadual. It is class only on sun, tue n weds. Means cuti on Monday, thurs n Friday.. tp..bila memikirkan ttg kegunaan cuti2 tersebut.. I think cuti ahad is better. Klu ade ape2 kt kl tym wiken, senang la ak nk blk.. kn kn kn???

Tp.. disebalik perancangn itu, I oso think bout sumthing related to sumone. Sumone yg ak rs penting selain drpd family ak.. it’s him. N it’s him oso yg membuatkan perasaan ak x tenang at dis momento.

Die bkl kerja thn ni,2010. N s far s im concerned, die punye base kt tmpt yg wikennye adlh sabtu n ahad. Penting ke sabtu n ahad tu?? Dlm angan2 ak, 2 hari tu sgt penting. Tp pd saat ini, ak dh x pasti.

It’s about love n reality.

Y lately slalu ade tekanan perasaan di antara kami. Adakah ak terlalu prejudis?? Or im being too childish??

I really hate dis feeling. I hate dis situation. I hate being in d uncertainty.
To be or not to be.


With luv??
t.i.c.k.d.i.e.a

p/s: Tuhan, ak tidak kuat. Tabahkan hati ak untuk menerima segala ketentuanMu. Amiin…

1 comment:

yaadahria said...

ces!!!bt ayat sdih la plak,,haha,,,lek r wey..meh kL..jupo ore..msti sronok!!!haha